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Why not allow me to become an honest man again ?

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ziven a strange idea to Dr Kock, when I was brought in and implored him to help me. I don't know, what I have said to hint I was vagua ir

But it was the desp the bead by the morphium, given to me on board. eration, which spoke through my mouth and drove the tears into my

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Sister E. who was attentive and seems to have studied this strange patient, told me for some days, she thought when Dr Kock took my revdlver away I would kill myself, gone day so despairing

I felt myself knooked down I looked. I don't know, I don't know. for a second time, by some evil Power, which would not allow me to

become honest again.

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I had so hoped to well enough in a forthright.

And all these weeks that longing to get away to Java de-

I looked in the papers for the ships, voured me, took my rest away. calculated whether I could go by that one or that one.

It could not

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I preferred

the J.G.J, Lyn, so that I could go straight on, not waiting for another ship in Singapore anymore.

And then, of a sudden, the police told me I was a prisoner. I was getting better, would have been able to leave the hospital soon. Perhaps I even could be at home before Christmas,

The blow knocked me down. all these illusions were gone,

Some Devil

desperated, to be ever able to become honest again. pursued ma, this was now clear to me,

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These were my first intressions.

I did not think much

This seeщей in the beginning about the causes for my arreat. absurd to me. To earthly Judge could punish me for my sin.

And it was only slowly, that I began to realize that the au- thorities could only arrest me, for seeing "a spy" in me.

But then, one of This struck me as a tremendous nonsense.